Monday, December 21, 2009

♥哭过就好了♥

Posted by ~*+Cass+*~ at 5:41 AM 1 comments
不喜欢怀疑什么
并不表示我 没有感受
看你微妙的变化 慢慢不同
我不是生气 只是心痛
最讨厌被误会了
但越解释 越觉得难过
你可以说人会变
但不能说 你会这么做 是我的错
哭过就好了 伤都会好的
这样相信所以深呼吸着 割舍
爱是为了拥抱 为了牵手
不是为了争吵 为了掉头
哭过就好了 痛都会走的
记忆有限 所以它会淘汰 坏的
失眠听歌 想念虽然苦涩
还是谢谢你 让我长大了
越多美好堆叠的过往
想忘就得推倒更大的悲伤
要找勇气却不在口袋或 手上
但它一定在我身上某个地方
*****************************

Friday, November 27, 2009

Mood

Posted by ~*+Cass+*~ at 10:00 PM 2 comments

No mood to update my blog lately
Hmm..
Nothing much to say
Nothing special to post

.....

.....

.....

Seems like friends all around me started with their new relationship
Except my babe, my bebe & me
3 single ladies hang around together all the time


Victor used to call us Charlie's Angel
Kevin used to call us S.H.E
Lolsss....

~Friends forever~

Monday, October 19, 2009

10/18

Posted by ~*+Cass+*~ at 7:46 AM 1 comments


10/18



Janice公主的生日

生日快乐哦~

很抱歉 想不到要送你什么生日礼物
所以 等迟点再补送给你哦~**

.
.

这一天凌晨四点 下大雨
我哭了
这是我长这么大以来
第二次为了朋友流眼泪

不晓得该怎么去处理
把事情变得更糟
被我搞砸了
气话一说出口就没办法收回
我知道我最后丢下的那句话很狠
::对不起::

我只是不希望看见那样的你
看见在渐渐放弃自己的你
听见别人口中的你
我的心真的不好受
因为我是真心在乎

最近身边的朋友
渐渐在改变
不知道这样是好是坏
我自己也变了
大家都迷失了方向
大家都很想找回从前的自己
可是
我了解
一个人变了就是变了
变质的东西 是无法还原的
如果你也发觉自己迷失了方向
那就重新找过另个方向
继续往前走
虽然不知道前面会是怎样
可是总比停滞不前好


[老天爷把你的门关上 总会留一扇窗口给你]

给想离开散心的比比
给想找回自己的宝贝

Monday, October 12, 2009

Live my Life

Posted by ~*+Cass+*~ at 3:42 AM 4 comments

Seems like i left my bloggie world behind again for quite a long time
Started to feel tired on partying recently
Is it a good news for me???
Lol...


How difficult is it to find a person who really understand you
Understand what you thinking about
What is in your mind
You are really smiles from your deep heart or you are hiding up your sorrows


My bebe always said that no one really understand her
I'm not the one who can fully understand her but i wish i was
And i'm trying my best to understand her too
I knew that she wasn't those kinda person
Peoples just like to judge someone from what they heard
Human, beside ears why don't you use your eyes & heart?
^^*


My babe is really kinda funny
She just like to hide up all her sadness
Still remember how her hands was shaking when she read tat girl's bloggie
Lol...
I knew that she was unhappy recently
But useless Miss Cass Mii did not accompany by her side
Forgive me babe~
And don't always stay alone & cry alone

i Hope that i can met with someone who was really understand me too
Someone i don't need to speak a word to
He/she will clear about what am i thinking
Disappointed about you
the one who very close to me even just for a few months
Never thought that you will believe what some strangers told you
And scolded me
Am i really that sucks?
Or i'm just that fake in your heart
Questioning myself all the time


I want MONEY


Capture this photo one day when i'm Starbuck+ing with my babe on a magazine
I'm fxxking agree with it
Haha~

What first flash in my mind is
Earn more money
To make myself happier

It's really true
Feels happy when i buy clothes, shoes, accesories, etc...
Feels happy when i spend money on eating nice food
Feels happy when i buy something for my beloved

Yeap..
I should think from another angle
My life should't be full of relationship or love
Live alone but with a bunch of buddies & ji mui
I do enjoy it

Take care of myself
Looking forward to future give a better life to my own
Treasure every single things & peoples around me
Appreciate what do i have now



Miss Cass Mii is learning to walk alone from now on ^^*


Monday, September 28, 2009

Turns into 21st *BIG GURL*

Posted by ~*+Cass+*~ at 6:43 AM 2 comments
Here i come
To post my 21st birthday celebrations
Busy like a bee recently
Until now only free to update my blog
Yea~
All friends that know me well
Cass is already addicted to party
Absolutely my 21st birthday celebration will be **Partiieee** everywhere
LoLx.... \/.\/
Day 1 [18/9]
Celebration starts at *7atenine* happy hour time
Had my dinner there

~salmon & maguro sashimi~


~Carbonara~

All very tasty
Party starts after my dinner


nonstop filling up my stomach with liquor


Day 2 [19/9]
Happy birthday to Mii~
Pass my 12am at the same place
Then we going to 2nd round
Party continue at *Phuture*
Called all my clubbing kaki there





Start blurr when i reached to phuture
Its really kinda pack there
But i still need to run around all my friends' table
Thanks for all my dearest friends' greeting here
Continue drinking





& capturing photos as much as i can





Cause i started to get drunk
Bebe keep telling me
'Not to drink anymore,
otherwise once u K.O.
you will become a die fish
and your birthday party will just end at phuture~'
GOSH...
Cass immediately refused to drink =p
3rd round Don't let the party stop
LoLz...
Continue at *Bintang Palace*



Luckily i not yet drunk





All continue <4d+ing>
Drink+Drank+Drunk+Dance



Party ends.....
Of course NO
Headed to *Crown Regency Hotel*





4th round & party never ends for me *^^*
I've got a big surprise here





All these are what they did for me





God damn touch for me
Tears nearly came out
Thanks for Mr Jason Liew, Miss MayJestine, Mr Wilson & all....


i'm still full of energy
All my friends tried to get some rest


haha~



This sleeping beauty even slept on the bath tub x.x


My babe came & joined us




We felt so hungry & started to 'cook' some food (actually its just reheat)
Crazy night~~
Sun came up
Finally i slept
but awaken by them who already get enough rest
Duh~
Went for shopping at Pavilion
Gift from my bebe**
Love it so much
Don't know what to say except Thankss *muackxx* XOXO
Lunch at Mr Victor's restaurant *MOF*
Delicious food & delicious soup
No chance to capture photos cause all hungry like hell
Dessert for birthday girl =D
Thanks again~
Went back to hotel
Took a nap first before i get ready to Poppy for my birthday celebration

But

But

I took a 8 hours nap
Bebe woke me up
She told me the time now is 3:30am
So, it's already


Day 3 [20/9]
My birthday pass
The last few hours of 19/9
Cass celebrated with Mr Chow


Gosh****
Cry with no tears T.T



Check out time
2pm in the afternoon

Had our lunch at babe's restaurant
Finally back to my own home
Piggy slept after my stomach full of food~


Phone kept ringing
Woke up & get ready
celebration with other friends & my brothers
Party at *Lost City*


Day 4 [21/9]
My first cake here


Party queen never felt tired
Joined my bebe's party at Times Square Hotel
Hehe

My mother specially came from Kuantan
No idea have to leave the party earlier and meet her
Had a simple lunch with her at kepong
Miss her but she had to rush back for her business


Party too hard these few days
My energy nearly exhausted
reached home at 5pm
Jump onto my bed
Sleep cause need to start work another day



Day 5 [22/9]
Rush home after finished work
Cause dated pretty Janice for dinner at *The Apartment*


~Baked fish with cheese on top~



Card & gifts hand-made by her



~Pretty necklace~



It's been a long long time i never met with her
LoLx..


Miss our time


& Thanks for Mr Jack too






***






THE END






***






p/s: For more photos please visit my facebook profile''




Never make any wish for myself on my 21st birthday
Cause i knew what i want won't comes true
But wish all my friends & family all the best


Thousand TQ to you all *^^**


Wednesday, September 16, 2009

**NeW mii NeW life**

Posted by ~*+Cass+*~ at 12:19 PM 4 comments


My big day is coming very soon
Supposed to be very excited & happy

But
dunno why

Really NO MOOD at all

NO mood to plan where to celebrate
NO mood to plan where to go
NO mood to plan what to do
NO mood to think who to celebrate with


Its been a long long time ago for me to celebrate a *SINGLE* birthday
Celebration without a person who cares & love me
Seems like ages ago

Luckily
i still have a bunch of ji mui & friends with me


Cut my front hair yesterday


***DIY***

My front hair never short like this about a years ago
Still not really can accept it
Look so childish @.@

The last time i cut my front hair was after broke up with my ex ex
Told myself this time
Cut my front hair again
Just to start a NEW life
Don't look back anymore

[ Memories should be always sweet ]

Because i still have many others problem
Waiting for me to solve it


Have to be strong girl
Hope that i can make it


Wednesday, September 9, 2009

放手>很难

Posted by ~*+Cass+*~ at 5:09 AM 3 comments

**放手**

真的不容易
之前那段恋情
不到两个月的时间
心就没那么痛了
还以为自己很坚强
跌倒后可以很快爬起来
继续往前走
原来是因为他
慢慢地住进了我的心里

开始时
只是把他当成救生圈
在我伤心 难过 孤单 的时候
有个人陪在左右
慢慢的却成为了我重要的一部分

现在的我又再次受伤
已经超过三个月了
这一次
没有另一个他走进我的心里

原以为时间可以冲淡一切
原以为让自己忙碌可以忘记一切
但只要一点点的事情 味道 照片 到过的地方
就可以轻易地勾起在脑里所有的回忆
香水味 甜甜圈 云顶 Starbucks和蛋糕 槟城 生熟蛋 日出 降落伞
臭豆腐 板面 Jet ski 跷跷板 日本餐 扭蛋 咸蛋超人 还有很多 很多

忘不了


能够让自己永远失忆吗??
这样就不需要失眠 睡不着
不需要让自己很忙碌 很累
不需要时时刻刻都想哭

很想把心空出来
至少可以想想其他有用的东西
可是我办不到
虽然被狠狠地伤害

还是无法[放手]

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

比失眠还惨

Posted by ~*+Cass+*~ at 5:59 AM 7 comments

半夜惊醒
原来比失眠更可怕
昨天晚上没出去
很早就上床等自己入睡了
好不容易睡着了
半夜却突然惊醒了
没有恶梦
眼睛却自然睁开

看一看时间
3:05am
记得很清楚


强迫自己再次入睡
再一次惊醒时
时间大概是凌晨4点左右
还以为上班时间到了
跳了起来
天还黑黑的
再次盖好被子


第三次了
这次时间是5:26am
也不是恶梦
只有眼泪
一个人在黑漆漆的房里

我只想一觉睡到天亮
有这么难吗??


6:38am
眼皮慢慢撑开
再过不到半个小时就要起床上班了




今晚 我想 还是一样吧

Monday, August 24, 2009

当你离开的时候

Posted by ~*+Cass+*~ at 5:13 AM 8 comments

还以为自己的复原能力很强
连朋友都这样说
原来我只是把悲伤的那一面藏了起来
还以为自己已经放下了所有伤痛
原来它只是被我深深的埋在心底


快三个月了
这段时间里我不断地让自己很忙
上班 外出 夜归 再早起上班
为的就是不想让自己有多余的时间
胡思乱想


包包不见了
里面的证件也跟着不见
又要去警察局走一趟
这次要学会自己独立
没有人可以再给我依靠


这是第三次不见了
以前都有他陪着我
习惯了依赖
所以这些事情我从来不会放在心上
没学会去认路
一个人驾车去警察局
竟然也会迷路
回忆像电影般一幕幕闪过
坐在那里 眼泪又流了


结束了 我也该学会坚强独立


最近 爱上了这首歌>>


我只能低着头发呆
让回忆渗透脑袋 渐渐变空白
我把它当做个意外
但内心还想不开
以为我明白 其实你都还在

我想起了遇见你的时候
想起你眼神中的温柔
想起了我们第一次牵手 我闭上眼
想起当时你怀里的颤抖
似乎那么害怕失去我
然而到后来我什么都没有
当你离开的时候

我可以装做已释怀
他对我也算关怀 他看不出来
我知道这样不应该
在他身上找依赖
算不算是种出卖 因为你一直在


我想起了遇见你的时候
想起你眼神中的温柔
想起了我们第一次牵手 我闭上眼
想起当时你怀里的颤抖
似乎那么害怕失去我
然而到后来我什么都没有
当你离开的时候

我想起你亲吻我的时候
想起你眼神中的沉默
想起了我们平静地分手 我闭上眼
想起当时你每一个承诺
把你整个心都交给我
然而到后来我什么都没有

越是没有你越是心痛


Tuesday, August 18, 2009

失眠

Posted by ~*+Cass+*~ at 4:28 AM 12 comments

睡不着
翻来滚去
眼睛就是睁得开开的

失眠
我讨厌!!!

最近身边的朋友
每一个都怀着自己的心事

我也一样
可是总找不到一双耳朵来倾听
闷在心里不好受

哈妮~
虽然表面上看起来很幸福
可是
幸福的笑容很久没挂在她脸上了

宝贝~
不知怎么说
心情时高时低
满怀心事
抽烟也多了

比比~
虽然经常脸上挂着笑容
可是我了解
她..也不开心

我们都累了

很想放声大哭
又不敢让人知道

今天一个人坐车回家
眼泪又不知不觉留下脸颊
幸好口罩盖住了
没让人发现


是什么原因把我...和我们变成这样??
找不到答案
找得到原因
却找不到解决方法

有一句话要告诉
*宝贝*哈妮*比比*当然还有我自己

如果不能在一起
那么说明没有缘分
既然没有缘分
那么就算不能在一起
也没什么好遗憾的


很想念我一个在英国的darling
希望你可以快点回来
以前我有什么心事
都会告诉你 和你分享
你不在我身边很久了
有三年的生日 没有和你一起过了
虽然我21岁的生日你还是不能回来
可是我22岁的时候
你要给我超难忘的

Monday, August 10, 2009

*Shopaholic* ??

Posted by ~*+Cass+*~ at 12:15 AM 6 comments
My buddy >>Mr. B keep pushing me to update my blog..
Cass is really kinda lazy
And dunno what to post on my blog also
Wana talk about my life??
still the same..
Working + Clubbing

My relationship status??
Enjoying my SINGLE life now..
But~
I spent a lot on shopping this month~
damn poor now... T.T...
What did i buy>>??
Mr B ask me to share it here...

All my frenz has been scolding me for never take care of my face
YUP~
i never use skin care products for these 21 years..
~Duh~


Facial foam wash & toner from The Skin Food
Wif new nail colours *BLUE & GOLD*

New clothes & skinny jeans from Forever 21
Something i bought from Sasa...
The most expensive shopping item among here..
LoLx... Also first in my life~.~

i love these shoes~
The first BLUE shoes i had... & the 'slipper' too...


i never had this kind of bag..
quite special & new style for me...
Haha~ Miss crazy Cass shop a lot of things that i wont ever buy before..
Wondering how can i continue my life this month??
NO Yum Cha~
NO Starbucks~
NO Dunhill~
What?? NO Dunhill???
Gosh... No smoke no LIFE man...

Luckily.. Mr Davis gave me a duty-free Dunhill Menthol...


Huhu~~
FOC smoking this month...Yea~

Saturday, July 25, 2009

相信*坦白*保护自己

Posted by ~*+Cass+*~ at 1:59 AM 6 comments

做人要懂得保护自己

这是哈妮告诉我的

她要我记得 人类是自私的动物

要为自己保留一点秘密

也不要轻易相信别人

要不然

到头来受伤害的会是自己


为什么我要毫无保留的把所有东西都告诉人

现在在大家眼中

CASS 就是个坏女人

哈 哈

或许我就是这样的一个坏人吧

爱情 真的会让人变得失去理智

现在连我也快看不清自己了


开始时 心真得很痛

可是 现在却变成了心淡

每一个人都持着自己的一套说法

有谁会觉得自己是错呢


在这一场游戏里 你们俩才是主角

不要再把我牵连进去了

我只想好好的生活

不想再被搞得一塌糊涂

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

向左走 向右走

Posted by ~*+Cass+*~ at 7:39 AM 10 comments


什么时候开始对这一句话有了感触


几米的漫画


<向左走 向右走>


故事是说一对男女


总是缺乏相遇的缘份


一个爱往左走


另一个爱往右走


而我


却有另一番见解


这一句话


是给分开后的恋人


一个往左边离开


另一个往右边而去


大家从此都不要再见


否则只会令未愈合的伤口


再次裂开




第一次分开走


他往左,我往右


没勇气回头看


我只知道自己哭得很惨


泪如雨下




第二次


我往左,他往右


心揪得很痛


眼泪不受控制流了下来






第三次


我往前走,他转身离开


这一次我也不敢回头


可是并没有掉泪


是伤愈合了??


还是便坚强了呢???



这几天待在家

心情都很低落

常坐在房间一角抽着烟

特别空虚寂寞

刚刚看见bebe写给我的部落

很感动

希望我可以把眼泪擦干

不再浪费眼泪

不让你们为我担心


 

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